Grateful Evermore

It was five and a half hours
In a shiny metal tube
Trying to calm my unsteady nerves
Took seven glasses of lube
I was greeted with smiles and hugs
From people I'd never seen
Only looked at their pictures
On my computer screen

I didn't know what would happen
Didn't know what to expect
When I walked through the door
To a world I won't forget
Didn't realize that I would find
What I had stopped looking for
But I did and I'll be grateful evermore

The surprises kept on coming
One by one it seemed
Everybody was so welcoming
It must have been a dream
To think that all these people
Were happy to meet me
It brought tears to my eyes
For all the world to see

It was a four day party
That I didn't want to leave
I had more fun in that short time
Than I can believe
Now I'm back in the real world
But nothing is the same
I'm a different man than I was before
My life's forever changed

Deep As The Sea

I have seen and I have known
I have wandered all alone
Through the day and through the night
Through the darkness and the light

I have tasted and I have felt
I have given of myself
Everything that I could give
Just so someone else may live

But I've never seen the light
That is shining in your eyes
Every time you look at me
With a love deep as the sea

I gave up my wandering days
Just to be with you always
And I never will regret
The time together that we spent

All good things come to an end
Whether lovers or just friends
But the memories will last
In the dreams of our past

I had never seen the light
That was shining in your eyes
Every time you looked at me
With a love deep as the sea

From Afar

Another busy day has reached its end
Fighting all the traffic once again
The lights are off as I pull into the drive
There's nothing here to make me feel alive

I wonder why I bother going on
Then my phone begins to sing a happy song
It's a message from the girl who stole my heart
She did it even though we've spent all our lives apart

I can't wait for the day
When we finally say hello
Hand in hand, face to face
We can let our feelings show
And my friends, they all tell me
That I'm reaching for a star
Girl it's true
I have loved you from afar

I'd give up all I have to see her face
With her and me together in one place
I'll take her in my arms and she will know
That this moment is forever and I'll never let her go

Yes, the moment will arise
That I look into your eyes
And the world will simply fade away
So now I'm asking you
We can make this dream come true
And let our lives begin today

Not So Much

I am saved by grace through faith in you

But sometimes I feel there's nothing I can do

Like Sisyphus pushing a stone up a hill

I am doomed to persist in futility still

I am losing the faith I need to start anew

 

Tell me why can't I learn how to trust you

Why can't I give you my heart

Why do I keep doing all of those things

That constantly tear us apart

Why do I find it so hard to believe

In something that I can't touch

Your grace is sufficient

But my faith, not so much

 

Where can I go to begin again

How do I find the strength to keep on when

The world is allied against me

And there's no way out that I can see

And it seems my time is coming to an end

 

Please tell me that you have a plan for me

And there's something more that you want me to be

Cause I'm tired of playing this stupid game

Where everything always ends the same

Can you take away these chains and set me free

If I Had A Heart

If I had a heart

I would give it all to you, dear

And if I had a heart

You would make it feel like new, dear

But what used to beat inside my chest

Has lost the race and failed the test

It ran away and left me from the start

I would give it all to you, dear

If I had a heart

If I had a dream

It would always be about you

And if I had a dream

It would never be without you

But each night I drag myself to bed

And try to rest my weary head

Nothing happens when I fall asleep it seems

It would always be about you

If I had a dream

If I'd only known

I could have done everything different

And If I'd only known

I'd have not been so insistent

I spent all the time we had to live

Until there was no more to give

And now I'm spending all my time alone

I could have done everything different

If I'd only known

My Worst Enemy

I stand before the mirror

Looking at the man

His eyes are accusing

Is this really who I am?

A product of experience

And how I handled them

While the memories unbidden

Come calling me again

My worst enemy tells me I'm good for nothing

He points out the ways that I failed

He shows me the reasons I suffer

And all the times fear has prevailed

So I pray to God that he will set me free

For I know that my worst enemy is me

I close my eyes in sorrow

Splash some water on my face

And wish that someone else would be

Standing in this place

But my wishes are ungranted

There's no genie to appear

And banish all my demons

There is only one man here

I can't do this by myself

Lord Jesus rescue me

Save me from the guilt inside

And my insecurity

Give me strength to carry on

And faith to face the day

Knowing that you'll always be

Beside me all the way

My worst enemy isn't good for nothing

His points are doomed to fail

There is no reason to suffer

My God will always prevail

For my savior came to set me free

My worst enemy has no power over me

Happy

When I'm feeling down

I just have to see your face

You turned my life around

With your beauty and your grace

You came into my life

And made me feel like a king

Every time I think of you

It makes me want to sing

Because you make me happy

More than I have ever been

Yes you make me happy

I just have to say it once again

Girl you make me happy

This feeling in my heart is true

It makes me want to tell the whole wide world

That I'm in love with you

I can't catch my breath

Every time I hear your voice

My heart pounds in my chest

I don't have any other choice

You lit the fire within me

That's been dormant for so long

I want to love you for all time

I know it can't be wrong