Not So Much

I am saved by grace through faith in you

But sometimes I feel there's nothing I can do

Like Sisyphus pushing a stone up a hill

I am doomed to persist in futility still

I am losing the faith I need to start anew

 

Tell me why can't I learn how to trust you

Why can't I give you my heart

Why do I keep doing all of those things

That constantly tear us apart

Why do I find it so hard to believe

In something that I can't touch

Your grace is sufficient

But my faith, not so much

 

Where can I go to begin again

How do I find the strength to keep on when

The world is allied against me

And there's no way out that I can see

And it seems my time is coming to an end

 

Please tell me that you have a plan for me

And there's something more that you want me to be

Cause I'm tired of playing this stupid game

Where everything always ends the same

Can you take away these chains and set me free

If I Had A Heart

If I had a heart

I would give it all to you, dear

And if I had a heart

You would make it feel like new, dear

But what used to beat inside my chest

Has lost the race and failed the test

It ran away and left me from the start

I would give it all to you, dear

If I had a heart

If I had a dream

It would always be about you

And if I had a dream

It would never be without you

But each night I drag myself to bed

And try to rest my weary head

Nothing happens when I fall asleep it seems

It would always be about you

If I had a dream

If I'd only known

I could have done everything different

And If I'd only known

I'd have not been so insistent

I spent all the time we had to live

Until there was no more to give

And now I'm spending all my time alone

I could have done everything different

If I'd only known

My Worst Enemy

I stand before the mirror

Looking at the man

His eyes are accusing

Is this really who I am?

A product of experience

And how I handled them

While the memories unbidden

Come calling me again

My worst enemy tells me I'm good for nothing

He points out the ways that I failed

He shows me the reasons I suffer

And all the times fear has prevailed

So I pray to God that he will set me free

For I know that my worst enemy is me

I close my eyes in sorrow

Splash some water on my face

And wish that someone else would be

Standing in this place

But my wishes are ungranted

There's no genie to appear

And banish all my demons

There is only one man here

I can't do this by myself

Lord Jesus rescue me

Save me from the guilt inside

And my insecurity

Give me strength to carry on

And faith to face the day

Knowing that you'll always be

Beside me all the way

My worst enemy isn't good for nothing

His points are doomed to fail

There is no reason to suffer

My God will always prevail

For my savior came to set me free

My worst enemy has no power over me