Not So Much

I am saved by grace through faith in you

But sometimes I feel there's nothing I can do

Like Sisyphus pushing a stone up a hill

I am doomed to persist in futility still

I am losing the faith I need to start anew

 

Tell me why can't I learn how to trust you

Why can't I give you my heart

Why do I keep doing all of those things

That constantly tear us apart

Why do I find it so hard to believe

In something that I can't touch

Your grace is sufficient

But my faith, not so much

 

Where can I go to begin again

How do I find the strength to keep on when

The world is allied against me

And there's no way out that I can see

And it seems my time is coming to an end

 

Please tell me that you have a plan for me

And there's something more that you want me to be

Cause I'm tired of playing this stupid game

Where everything always ends the same

Can you take away these chains and set me free

If I Had A Heart

If I had a heart

I would give it all to you, dear

And if I had a heart

You would make it feel like new, dear

But what used to beat inside my chest

Has lost the race and failed the test

It ran away and left me from the start

I would give it all to you, dear

If I had a heart

If I had a dream

It would always be about you

And if I had a dream

It would never be without you

But each night I drag myself to bed

And try to rest my weary head

Nothing happens when I fall asleep it seems

It would always be about you

If I had a dream

If I'd only known

I could have done everything different

And If I'd only known

I'd have not been so insistent

I spent all the time we had to live

Until there was no more to give

And now I'm spending all my time alone

I could have done everything different

If I'd only known

My Worst Enemy

I stand before the mirror

Looking at the man

His eyes are accusing

Is this really who I am?

A product of experience

And how I handled them

While the memories unbidden

Come calling me again

My worst enemy tells me I'm good for nothing

He points out the ways that I failed

He shows me the reasons I suffer

And all the times fear has prevailed

So I pray to God that he will set me free

For I know that my worst enemy is me

I close my eyes in sorrow

Splash some water on my face

And wish that someone else would be

Standing in this place

But my wishes are ungranted

There's no genie to appear

And banish all my demons

There is only one man here

I can't do this by myself

Lord Jesus rescue me

Save me from the guilt inside

And my insecurity

Give me strength to carry on

And faith to face the day

Knowing that you'll always be

Beside me all the way

My worst enemy isn't good for nothing

His points are doomed to fail

There is no reason to suffer

My God will always prevail

For my savior came to set me free

My worst enemy has no power over me

Happy

When I'm feeling down

I just have to see your face

You turned my life around

With your beauty and your grace

You came into my life

And made me feel like a king

Every time I think of you

It makes me want to sing

Because you make me happy

More than I have ever been

Yes you make me happy

I just have to say it once again

Girl you make me happy

This feeling in my heart is true

It makes me want to tell the whole wide world

That I'm in love with you

I can't catch my breath

Every time I hear your voice

My heart pounds in my chest

I don't have any other choice

You lit the fire within me

That's been dormant for so long

I want to love you for all time

I know it can't be wrong

Is It Okay? (A Prayer)

Lord, I've come to talk with you again

You said that I can call you a friend

Well friends don't let friends hurt the ones they care about

And there's something I need help to figure out

You know I've been here many times before

Afraid to go and knock upon the door

Afraid that when it opens I'll have nowhere left to hide

And she won't like what she sees inside

I want to take a leap of faith

So tell me if it's wrong

And I'll end up bringing both of us to shame

I don't know what's going to happen

If I tell her how I feel

But either way, she won't look at me the same

So Lord, now that I've inquired of you

Please let me know what I'm supposed to do

I want to tell her face to face but the fear is much too strong

Is it okay to say I love her with my song?

Blossom

I sit here watching the clock upon the wall

The second hand goes ticking round so slowly

But I'll keep waiting until I get the call

That tells me I can see my one and only

When the day is finally over

And the moon begins to shine

We can take off our disguises

And I can make you mine

Oh the trees blossom in the springtime

Let our love blossom in the night

Though we pass like strangers in the daytime

When the stars come out we're gonna make it right

Nobody knows the secret that we're sharing

We keep it hidden where no one else can see

You're my sweet cherry blossom

And I'm your honey bee

There is no place for me inside your world

And you wouldn't care for mine very much

But there is nothing I won't do for you girl

As long as I can always feel your touch

If they ever knew about us

They just wouldn't understand

But there opinions don't mean nothing

When you hold on to my hand

No one else can ever see

The look upon my face

The way my eyes light up

At your beauty and your grace

I wanna shout from the rooftops

That the love of my life is right here

But I'll keep silent

Until that day appears

Capture Me

Like a butterfly adrift upon the wind

Or an ocean wave crashing to its end

I've got no destination in mind

And no idea what I will find

Will you be there when I fall to earth again

Capture me

Enrapture me

Put your chain around my heart

Tell me that we'll never part

Rescue me

From this state of misery

Anywhere you are is where I want to be

I can see the stars shining in your eyes

But then the clouds appear and cover up the skies

Like a boat on an angry sea

There is nothing anchoring me

From being swept away with the tide

I'm surrounded by friends and neighbors

But I've never felt so alone

I need your love to save me

Cause I can't make it on my own

So if you see me passing by

Could you please throw me a line

Give me a sign

That you will be mine