Fall Into Me

I was dreaming in a world of twilight

Filled with shades of gray

Stuck inside a time of way back when

Then I awoke to living color

When I saw your face

You showed me it's okay to love again

 

Fall into me like I fell into you

Surrender yourself to a love that is true

Give me your heart like I gave mine to you

I will keep it safe

Come to me now, here in my arms

Holding you close and sheltered from harm

Giving you peace, cozy and warm

I will love you all my days

 

You've been looking to escape from

The chains around your heart

Afraid of what it means to be free

Now the door is open

But you don't know where to start

Instead of holding back hold onto me

 

I was captured in the moment that I looked into your eyes

And as I fell ever deeper I began to realize

That my life was changed forever; there can be no compromise

'Cause I can't live without your love

God is a Cat Person

I like dogs, but I've always been a cat person at heart. Cats have free will; dogs don't. You can be an abusive bastard, and your dog will still love you. It's wired into his DNA.

A cat won't put up with that kind of bullshit. If your cat loves you, it proves you are worthy to be a pet owner.

This observation explains my own personal theology. Why did God give us free will? Why did he give us the ability to disobey him, knowing ahead of time that we would?

Because we are cats, not dogs. If we were dogs, we would still love him even if he were a shitty God. It would not glorify him if we were to love him without the ability to do otherwise.

But we are cats. We love God not because it is programmed into us, but because he has proven himself worthy of our love. This gives him the glory that he both craves, and deserves. Our worship is only meaningful because we have the capacity to not worship him.

GOD IS A CAT PERSON.

When I'm Gone

I spent the day dressed in black

As we came to say goodbye

To an old familiar friend

I heard the people speak

And tried hard not to cry

 

And the thoughts came to my head

At times like these they often do

I can't help but wonder

What if it was me

Would the tears that we were crying still be true

 

What will they say when I'm gone

Did I make a good impression

Touch the heart of anyone

Did I live my life the way I should

Did I act with good intention

Did I do all that I could

When I die will they miss me

Or shrug their shoulders and move on

Tell me what

Will they say

When I'm gone

 

Walking softly on the grass

To a bit of hallowed ground

Where my father's body lay

I came to say hello

But cannot make a sound

 

In the end I have to ask

If he would be proud of me

"Cause all I ever wanted

For a legacy

Is to be half the man he used to be

 

I have tried to make a difference

In the lives of those I loved

Be the kind of friend I wish I had

When I was growing up

Be a good husband and father

Do my best when times got tough

Please tell me

Has it been enough

 

I spent the day dressed in black...

 

[updated 12/9/2016]

Overcome Me

I need your help today
'Cause I can't help myself
I try in vain to do things my own way
But only end up hurting someone else

I've spent my whole life as
My own worst enemy
I've wrapped myself in so many chains
The you're the only one to set me free

You've overcome the world
Now overcome me
I stumble in the darkness
'Cause I'm too blind to see
Your plans are so much greater
Than mine could ever be
You've overcome the world
Please overcome me

I don't want to be
The cause of others' sin
Better that I go off by myself
If that's the way the healing can begin

I'll stay inside my shell
Where I can do no harm
Until the day when you have made me well
And given me a shelter from the storm

I have caused so much pain
To the ones that I love
And there's no way I can make it right
So I ask you today
Send your grace from above
And open my eyes so I see the light

Give Me A Reason

The feeling's coming once again

The memories invade and then

The weight of all my past mistakes

Comes crashing over me

Don't know how much more I can take

Before something in me breaks

And I fall apart in pieces

For all the world to see

 

I am calling out to you

Because it's all that I can do

 

God, give me a reason to survive

Give me a place where I can hide

Give me something I can hold on to

So I don't lay down and die

Give me a reason to believe

In the things that I can't see

Send your angel now to hold me

And your love to set me free

 

Am I crying out for help

Or feeling sorry for myself

Or is there really any difference

Looking through your eyes

Now my faith just seems too weak

To find the answers that I seek

Is your mercy great enough

For you to hear my cries

 

I'm tired of wearing a brave face

While I'm waiting for some grace

And wondering if it's ever going to show

Now I'm begging you today

To send a miracle my way

Because I won't be here tomorrow

Here With Me (for PT)

I have walked a million miles

And I've seen a million things

Spent the fullness of my life

In the shadow of your wings

 

Every step along the way

You've been there to hold my hand
Though I didn't always see

Now I finally understand

 

You are here with me

As I walk through the valley

You're here with me

As I climb the mountain tall

You're here with me

With every step of the journey

You're here with me

To pick me up when I fall

You're everywhere I go

In everything I see

Lord may you always be

Here with me

 

There is nothing that can take

Away the love you've given me

It's the thing that fuels my heart

And it will eternally

 

Across every bridge

Behind every door

You're there on the other side

Your light shining through

To banish the dark

There's nowhere that it can hide

Every Time I Turn Around

I am Judas, the betrayer

I turn my back upon you every day

But when I come to you in prayer

You open up your arms and bid me stay

You're always there to catch me when I fall

You're always there to see me through it all

 

Every time I turn around you're standing right behind me

Every time I try to run away you always find me

After all my broken promises and bridges that I burn

You're still there every time I turn around

 

I am Thomas, always doubting

Why do I find it so hard to believe

And even when the proof is shouting

The truth is sometimes so hard to conceive

But your patience and compassion tell me true

I see it every time I look at you

 

I am Peter and Matthew and Simon and James

And the rest of your unruly band

I am trying to follow, but scared just the same

'Cause there's so much I don't understand

How the love still pours from your hand